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This Was My Life the Past Eight Days

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On December 10, 2015

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Facebook sends me helpful reminders when I haven’t posted anything recently.  I sincerely apologize to the 548 people who have had nothing better to do than anxiously await my next post.  

Just so you know I’m not a slacker, this post is all about what I’ve been doing the last 8 days that I have not been blogging.  I’ve also not been cooking, reading, sleeping, or controlling my stress levels very well either.  Instead, my entire life has been consumed by Haven of Peace Academy’s Christmas Family Fun Day.

It’s kind of ironic, actually, that I’m even writing about this event since I was insistent, for months, that I was not going to lead it.  But then I volunteered to lead the Parent Association for the elementary school, along with Heidi, who volunteered to lead it for the secondary school.  By the time October rolled around, we realized that it was either going to be us or no one taking on the Christmas Family Fun Day.  

Reluctantly, we decided it would be us.  

Thus, for the past two months, this event has occupied a great deal of my brain space.  And in the last week or so, it occupied pretty much everything in all my spaces. 

But finally December 9th came and went, and now I can breathe again.  And clear out my brain.  

Thankfully, it was smashing success.  We had the biggest attendance ever, we raised over $10,000 for HOPAC’s new library, and no one actually melted (even though that was a strong possibility in the sweltering tropical sun).  

So, whether or not you care about all of this, I figured I would post pictures anyway, just in case you really have been sitting around, wondering what I have been up to.

photo credit:  Rebecca Laarman

Josiah spent all of his game tickets on human foosball.  No surprise there. 

photo credit:  Rebecca Laarman

Of course, we couldn’t have done any of it without Shelley, Beth, Doris, Rebecca and her seniors, Adrian and Student Council, Melissa (on the left) and especially Nisha (in the middle)….who single-handedly solicited thousands of dollars of raffle prizes.  
….and Heidi, my co-leader, partner in crime, and raffle announcer extraordinaire.

(And Amy Ellis, you better get yourself back to Tanzania, because I am not doing this again next year!  No comments about how I said that last year too.)

Giving Tuesday: Here’s a Great Way to Support Orphans!

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On December 1, 2015

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The best part about Forever Angels Baby Home is not the tidy lines of toothbrushes, even though that  part is pretty cool.

It’s not the brightly painted walls, the nourishing food, or the gazillions of diapers which are hand-washed every day.

It’s not even the caregivers who whole-heartedly love the children, or even the scads of volunteers who make the orphanage a happy place for kids who have lost almost everything.

No.

The best part about Forever Angels is that they don’t just love children, they love families.  

It seems like a no-brainer, but this is something that many, many orphanages get wrong.  Often, orphanages are only focused on the children.  Honestly, it is a lot easier that way.  Orphans are cute.  They are, in many ways, pathetically cute.  Their pathetic-ness just makes them cuter.  Am I right or am I right?

But often orphanage workers, and ourselves, forget that children in orphanages often come from families who are broken, but still very much alive.  It’s much messier, and not so cute, to engage with families that are poor and hurting.  It would be much easier to just take care of their cute kids.

This is where Forever Angels shines.  First and foremost, FA desires to get kids back with families.  When a baby shows up whose mother died in childbirth, they keep the child only until she is strong enough to go home.  When a starving toddler arrives, they get the little one healthy again, but also supply his mother with capital so that she can start a small business.  When an albino child needed protection during the election season, FA admitted the child, but also gave his mom a job at the orphanage so she could see him daily.

Forever Angels helps HIV patients (parents and children) get on ARV medication.  They provide temporary housing to families who need to get on their feet, and sometimes permanent housing when it’s really needed.  They train orphaned (often homeless) teenagers in job and life skills.  They seek out pregnant girls living on the street, in hopes of preemptively helping them to keep and care for their babies.

And then, of course, there’s adoption.  Two of our kids came from Forever Angels, which is how we became acquainted with it.  Not very many children are adopted in Tanzania each year, but most of them that are come from Forever Angels, because it’s easy to recognize what a great place it is.  Forever Angels loves adoption, but only as a last resort.  Which is exactly how it should be.  

This Giving Tuesday, if you have a heart for African orphans, remember that the best place to start is by helping their families.  Supporting Forever Angels is a outstanding way to do that.

Click hereto support their December fundraising campaign.

Click hereto read their wonderful stories of re-building families.  (Some pages will need the password of “Tanzania.”)

Click hereto read about their volunteer program.

I could write about a lot of great causes you could support today, but this is one I especially love.  We happily support Forever Angels.  I hope you will too.

Confessions of a Good Girl

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On November 29, 2015

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Seen outside a Tanzanian church.  Source here



Growing up, I was the poster child for Good Christian Girls.

Straight-A student?  Check.

Never listen to Madonna or watch 90210?  Check, check.

Don’t drink, smoke, or chew, or go with boys who do?  Check, check, check.

I tutored inner-city kids.  I helped to lead a Bible club for disabled teens.  My ambition was to become a missionary, for crying out loud.  I was oozing with goodness.

I’ve always liked rules.  Following them gives me a sense of control, a feeling of success, and eliminates pesky guilt.  Just tell me what to do, and I’ll do it.  I follow the speed limit.  I recycle.  I stay off the grass.  And for a long time, following the rules is how I tried to live out Christianity.

Until I started to realize that it really was just a big show.  I could be very good at putting on that happy, cheerful, servant-leadership face, while all the while I had a selfish spirit, sense of superiority, and sometimes downright hate snarling around in my heart.  Mix that together with a strong fear of people’s opinions and a good dose of anxiety, and you don’t have a very pretty picture.  To my horror, sometimes these attitudes even slipped out for other people to see.

There’s nothing worse for a Good Girl to realize than that she’s really not all that good after all.  There’s not a lot of options at that point.  What was I supposed to do?  Hide it?  Try harder?  Suppress the guilt?  Do penance?  None of those things are very satisfying.  And they certainly don’t fix the problem.

And no, I didn’t have a harsh upbringing, and I didn’t attend a legalistic church.  I actually grew up as a pretty happy person.  I just knew that there was a big disconnect between the person I showed to the world, and who I actually was.

Thankfully, the truth of Grace swept into my life in college.  It was something I had known all my life; it had been staring me right in the face, but I had looked in a thousand other directions before I fell deeply into it’s glory.

And oh!  What a blessed relief, what a glorious rest, to slowly come to the realization that I was not only saved by grace, but sustained by grace, and held by grace.  Following the rules may have spared me a lot of heartache, but they did not, could not, change my heart.

I’m glad I came to this understanding before getting married, because being a wife and a mom has just reinforced what a wretchedly awful person I am capable of being.  At the beginning, I desperately yearned for a checklist of rules that would make me a good wife and mom, but as time went on, I was really glad there wasn’t.  I would have failed miserably.

Readers have often commented to me that they are thankful…surprised, maybe?…at my honesty about my weaknesses and failings.  But the truth is, I am tired of being seen as the Good Girl.  Been there, done that.  It’s impossible, and it’s exhausting.  I would much, much rather live in grace.

Living in grace means that when I screw up, I’m not only forgiven, but I have the power to change.   It means reveling in the joy of knowing that I never have to earn God’s favor–I already have it.  It’s means that when I do something right, it’s all because of Him.  If there’s anything good that comes out of me, it’s because I have first breathed in His grace.

So why then should I be afraid of being open about who I really am?  I, in myself, am nothing.  I, on my own, am just a show.  I would not, could not, ever have been good enough.  There’s something deeply vulnerable about blogging, about putting myself out there for anyone to see….and criticize.  But I remind myself that if anyone does think negatively about me, well, it’s probably true anyway.  If I am living in grace, I have nothing to fear.

If I let you think I’m that Good Girl, then it is only Amy Medina who gets the attention.  I’m just another really great, religious rule-follower who makes the rest of humanity feel bad about themselves.  No wonder the world would mock me if I fell.  But if I let you see who I really am, then–and only then–can you see the gospel at work in my life.  Only then can you possibly see Jesus.

And that’s pretty much what grace is all about.  What I’m all about.

Three Months: Nature or Nurture?

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On November 22, 2015

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Sometimes I gaze at my kids and look for their birthparents.  Did her mother have those shoulder dimples?  Did his father have that build?  What parts of their personalities did they leave behind in their children?  

I often marvel at the tragedy and privilege of being mom to children I did not birth.  I know they are mine, but I forget sometimes that my imprint is just as strong as their genes.

It’s easier to see in Johnny, who came to us as an almost-four-year-old.  It’s fascinating to watch the process of who he is becoming.  I used to think that it was we who were getting to know him.  But really, it is us watching him Become.

He is becoming a brother, more specifically, a little brother.  Josiah and Johnny are figuring each other out, and they do it by rolling around the house, pulling and shouting and roaring and chasing and tickling.  Mommy, I love having a little brother!  Mommy, can Johnny cuddle with me while we pray?  And my heart sings that they have each other, even while I holler, No wrestling in the kitchen while I’m cooking!

He is becoming a mother’s son.  He’s not much into cuddling anymore; he’s too busy for that.  Except at bedtime, when he pulls my face down to his and holds it there with an iron grip.  The whining comes out for Mommy.  The weepiness comes out for Mommy.  Mommy is the food person and the get-your-needs-met person.

He is becoming a father’s son.  Daddy is the fun one;  Daddy is the wrestler and the game-player and the one you can hit in the stomach.  But Daddy is also the boss, and much to Mommy’s frustration (since I discipline the exact same way as Daddy), one word from Daddy and Johnny pays attention.  He says Boo Yah! when something exciting happens, just like Dad.  I say to him, You are My Johnny!  And he says, No, I’m Daddy’s Johnny.  Until I tickle him and he says he is mine too.  But I know my place.

He is becoming part of a community.  He roams the HOPAC campus at ease; he runs to “Aunt Alyssa” and he knows the names of Grace’s friends on her soccer team.  His world has opened to hundreds of friendly people, and in return he displays the often unhealthy gregariousness that accompanies children out of orphanages.  But it’s okay; we will help him figure it out.

He’s learned to buckle his seatbelt by himself and sit in the cart at the grocery store.  He eats hot dogs and broccoli (though we’re still fighting over eggs…I no like eggs!).  He is great at saying Shikamoo to Tanzanians and giving high-fives to English-speaking people.  He sings “Watch Me Whip” and “How Great is Our God”….sometimes in a remarkable mash-up.

He is becoming someone he was not three months ago.  Sometimes I still catch him staring, wide-eyed, at something he’s never seen before.  It’s like I can just see the brain cells rewiring as he processes his new life.

That fascinating mixture of nature and nurture is even more beautifully mysterious in adoption.  My children are who they are because they are mine.  We are inextricably linked.  And if God is sovereign, and this was His plan from the beginning, then this Becoming is not a mistake, not second best.  It is, to be cliche, destiny.  This is who my children were meant to be.

I’ll still be looking for their birthparents in my children’s smiles, expressions, and abilities.  But actually, all those things are so intertwined with Gil and me that it becomes harder and harder to know the difference.

If We Perish, We Perish. But Let’s Choose Love Over Fear.

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On November 18, 2015

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*Note added 11/20/15:  Please be assured that my intentions were not to make a political statement as to what the U.S. government should do about the refugee crisis.  I only want Christians to think about our reaction to the “dangerous” people and places in our society that we often try to avoid.  

A couple years ago, the U.S. postal service came out with a series of stamps showing children in active activities.  They never went to print.  Why, you ask?  Because many of the children on the stamps were participating in “dangerous activities.”  Look carefully:  No helmets, no knee pads, and [gasp!] one child is even doing a cannonball.

We are a culture that is obsessed with safety.

Is the house I am buying in a safe neighborhood?

Is my child’s school safe?

Are vaccines safe?  Pesticides?

Will less guns make us safe?  Or more guns?

Prayer meetings are often dominated by requests for safety in traveling.  We spend hours researching the safest car seat, baby monitor, and crib.  We always buckle.  These aren’t necessarily bad things.

Until this obsession gets into the way of obeying God.

What happens when God breaks your heart for the low-income neighborhood in your city?

What about when your firstborn child is called to be a missionary in Iraq?  Or Afghanistan?  Or North Korea?

What about when that unseemly neighbor wants her kids to come over and play?

Or how about something as simple as finding out that 10,000 Syrian refugees are being sent to your city?

It’s ironic that two months ago, when a drowned toddler was the Face of the Refugee, there was only criticism for those countries who didn’t open their arms wide.  Now, when the Face of the Refugee is a terrorist, those same doors are slamming shut.

I don’t want to make a political statement here.  I realize that the refugee situation is complicated and not easy to solve.  However, I do want to make a Christian statement.

When our love of safety gets in the way of obeying God, we are wrong.

When our love of safety gets in the way of loving people, we are wrong.

When we see the dysfunctional neighbor, the unruly child, the refugee, the Muslim, we should see the face of Jesus.  When we see the low-income neighborhood, the Arab country, the dilapidated house down the street, we should see places to which Jesus would have run.

Yes, we should be safe when we can be.  But as Christians, for the sake of love, we should err on the side of risk.   

Who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?  



To cross the railroad tracks.

To open our homes to the international college student.

To welcome the foster child.

To befriend the woman behind the veil.

To give generously.

To love lavishly.

And be willing to say with Queen Esther,

If I perish, I perish.  

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